rendevouz with my inner self..

After a long time today I tried to write..but strangely enough words don't come to me anymore....I wanted to write but the words wudnt come! Gone are the days when my head was swarmed with all the crazy words...There is a sudden calmness....Is it the calmness n quietness before a storm...or is it another side of me that I dint know...There is a queer uneasiness...Seems like I am not aware of my emotions of anymore..love friendship jealousy hatred dreams smiles all in a turmoil...I want to hear the call of my heart once more....

Hum se bhi baat krlo
Humein bhi apne baaton mein shamil krlo
Akele hain hum bhi...
hamein bhi apni shaamon ka hissa bana lo

door chle gye ho itna,
socha kabhi na tha jitna
ab to hum apne aap se baatein karte hain aapki
ab to hum puri yaadein hi yaad kartein hain aapki...

ab jab tum miloge, to ek pal ke liye bhi juda na hone denge
yeh judai ke lamhein kate kat te nai hain ab,
aapse dubara milkar apne pyar ka izhaar krne li intezaa main hain hum ab...

Everyday i miss u here,
Everyday i kiss u in air...

I look for u everywhere,
but alas, you are not in here...

I luv u so much, i can't describe,
for me, a love tablet my doctor shouldd prescribe.....

Well Paaro is our college sweetheart...eves dropper..oops! I mean show stopper! (:O)
But guys please look out for her only before midnight...As you know the face can be concealed by many "things"! I know it's a cliche and as a girl I have no right to reveal other girl's beauty secrets...But.enough is enough! after putting loads of day cream,fairness cream (:P) smile enhancer, eye catching formula, sparkling laughter secret, crow lines vanisher, glow glow, sad expression hider, fragrant magik, no tears booster, J hider....(uff!) If a girl still needs to put more..then sorry I'll have to write!
So our Paaro obv is benefitting from liberalization! (PJ. Liberalization 1991 <-> entry of foreign players <-> consumer awareness <-> Miss India's <-> preety girls around the corner using those products!!) So,Paaro is one of the countless other girls but a step ahead. She knows when to twitch her eye to tell you( here you means a rich, not so handsome, flashy, guy with a swanky car!) that you are being "chep"! n she knows when to blush a little to unchep you....
Open her cupboard n apart from little teenie weenie hankerchief sized clothes, n all sorts of "cosTmetRics" mentioned above you will find gifts from all parts of the world! Now see our Paaro doesnt believe in roaming around with the lamp and counting all the months, days, hours, minutes n seconds spent without Dev D! she is practical and well read(don't know from where it came!) So our Paaro makes most of her life and she has no probs with Chunni Lals of the college. So free free free! everything is free for her! from car ride to cofee,from last year paper to this year concepts, from movie in theatre to videos on laptops! you name it and she has it!!!
and infact it's a gud thing! Love thy mankind! n "Man" will love you with kinds!!!!!!
so this was the glimpse into the world of our Paaro... :)...
I think it's enugh for today..now I need rest..wait for my next post to hear more about my fav person...

Well I jes thought of putting the every day life of a typical college student. She is just like me and you..full of dreams..(day dreams :P)...aspirations...uncertainties..n smile in her eyes! To make her character interesting I kept her name "Paro"! She is nothing like what you call girl next door...She is what you call "Rakhi Sawant" in "Mai Hoon Nah"...So to make things spicy I ll be trying to write regularly about the daily life of Paaro....I am sure there can be such grls too...But I haven't met one till now!! so any coincidence is deeply regeretted !

This poem I wrote jes thinking about all the grls who wud have been having fun today..but they r not as they were stoppd frm entering this world by dre parents...
So oddly enuf I decided to dedicate a poem to all of them ! and this is my first attempt at rhyming too!!!

Songs from the other world

Long lost in another world
are my little cries..
Wanted to make them heard in this world
but U broke all the ties!
My tone is low
and is getting lost day by day..
Here the sky is grey
and I have notjing left to say
The sun never comes
Moon jes sways...
I jes think of all the stars
whose tiny lights reveal my scras..
I inspired to be Britney or Madonna
but all I have here are empty promises...
which you nourished for few months
but broke them into pieces...
as soon as you found out
that I am jes another grl
with all those dirty curls...
So here I am in this world
singing for you to call me back
from this dark.....
Alone in this other world....

Well was just surfing through net when I came across these lines...
"Ek bhi aansu na kar bekaar..
jaane kab samundar mangne aa jaye.."
These lines just left me thinking...We just keep on crying over what we don't have..just keep on looking for a reason to shed a tear...may be we like seeing ourselves in pain...
But when I think over it..Is there any other reason we keep on hurting ourseves so many times...probably we all wait for someone to come and wipe off our tears....to make us happy...to console us and to tell us that don't worry everything will be alright...to hug us and cry with us..to give us a ray of hope..a promise full of magical and beutiful life....but are we so hollow that we need someone else to be happy... Well I have no idea..may be I am a hypocrite...

"har chalakte aansu ko kar pyaar..."

I am just another girl..lost in the sea of thoughts..sea of people...in the cat race to be the best...It's my experience with the blogging world..I am kind of scared...but this is what it's all about I guess..being face to face with your inner thoughts..inner self..thoughts you would never imagine exist...but when you come face to face with these thoughts they kind of scare you...so it just occured to me to be brave and dare to bare :P

khan gum hai aajkal.....

kyun sum sum hai aajkal

kyun itna soch rhe ho

kyun kisi ka intezaar kr rhe ho

itna pyar kyun krte ho usse

kyun itna pyar krte ho intezaar se

isi intezaar ne churaya hai tumhein mujse

abto pta nai tum kisse zyada pyar krte ho,

us intezaar se ya mujhe....

loved these lines....